Dig

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again
Yes you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.
We all have someone that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.
Oh each other....
When everything
Else is gone.

I am not really into rock or alternative songs but somehow this song has caught my attention.

I like the first stanza and the line "Remind me that we'll always have each other When everything else is gone. "

This song is for you Jammeh...

Thanks Jay for sharing this song. Thanks Incubus for another meaningful song.

Open your Eyes

Open your eyes and look me in the eye
Which happens to be the soul of my entirety
See how the pain and the hurt wander
Thru the vast emptiness of the life that has been.

Do you see your self in my eyes?
There's no doubt you would see
how I've seen our love that was
that the radiance of each word you've uttered
Swept me and brought me to a world of our own.

Open your eyes and see me in the dark
How your complexities and pride
have brought me so much pain in life.
Groping on thin air I beg
Reaching out to that final thread of hope.

You used to be my inspiration
Life brought me to you to create this fantasy
Moments had served its purpose
And made a deep mark in my entire being.

But now its the pain that I had with you
That inspires me.
Inspires me to lock my self up in this dark and empty room
Grasping the air that I can breathe
Got my self crumpled and motionless
Head down and hopeless to the new tomorrow.

Open your eyes my dear
You know far more better than me
Know how this heart felt alive again with you.
It is yearning for you and for your love
If only you will open your eyes for me.

Project Runway (Protege Style)

More and more pics from the Fashionista Project in our team. These are the shots on the final week. Worth the effort for me!

How Things can go Crazy with Hazel

It is seldom that you would meet a person who would have wits and humor in one person. That if situation calls for it, a person can shift to a good listener and advisor and can draw a smile in your face when things need to lighten up. These are just a few things that I have witnessed with Hazel. She has a lot to say. But always makes sense. That's why I enjoy being with her. I love her company. I love her. :-)

The Sweetest....

When *** Met jiLL

When I see you

When we talk not speak

I will not say I am sorry for being busy

I will not say I am sorry for being perfect

I will not say I am sorry for preferring my business

and work over any other matter in the world

I will not say I am sorry for being unpredictable

I will not say I am sorry for being crazy

I will not say I am sorry for being fastidious!

I will say I miss you my Beautiful dawn

I miss your voice

I miss your smile

I miss your hair .

I guess some things just never change while others still remain the same

Life is void without you my Beautiful dawn

People are shadows without you my Beautiful dawn

My friends are daily routines without you my Beautiful dawn

My sleep is awaken without you my Beautiful dawn

My happiness is embarrassed without you my Beautiful dawn

All roads in my mind are in one direction … To you my Beautiful dawn .

My world is not the same without you

No matter how hard I try to forget you

No matter how hard I try to ignore you

No matter how hard I try to let you go.

You're still the vigilant thoughts

that strike my sense when I open the doors of my mind.

There is no place like home

There is no place like your heart

In a little while this hurt will hurt no more

In a little while

I will be home.

Gusto ko nang Magresign!!!

Sa work?


Hinde noh!!!


Gusto ko nang magresign sa pagiging kaibigan mo.


Baket?


Masyado mo ako minamaliit. Oo nga't marami kang maipagmamalaki hindi lang sa akin pati na rin sa buong mundo pero kailangan mo bang ipamukha sa amin?

Hindi ako nakaranas sa iyo ng usapan na may sense. Alam mo ba un tipong paulit ulit na topic na wala namang essence?

Puro bulok ang lumalabas na salita sa bibig mo. Bulok din ba ang laman ng jutaks mo? Sa Payatas ka na lang tumira. Bagay ka dun.

Cge... Ipagnuknukan mo sa buong mundo na magaling ka. Ikaw na ang bida. Wala ng tatalo sa iyo. Hindi ka pwedeng kontrahin. Ka level mo ba si Einstein sa IQ?

Hindi ba maganda ang kinalabasan? Bakit? Nasan ka ba nun kinailangan ko ng payo? Tinulungan mo ba ako mag isip? Hindi.

Kung wala ka rin lang makitang maganda sa isang tao, manahimik ka na lang. Wag mo na engganyohin ang tao na jumoin sa level ng utak mo.

Mayaman ka pala. Wag ka na magtrabaho! Hindi mo kailangan ng trabaho kung mayaman ka. Hayaan mo na lang un ibang naghahanap ng trabaho na kumuha ng posisyon mo.

Ikaw ba may ari ng Orocan group of companies? Panalo kase pagkaplastic mo eh. Tinalo mo si Lastikman.


Hindi na kita matake!!!!


I'M FILING MY IRREVOCABLE RESIGNATION EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY


Note:
Ang mga salita at pangyayari sa post na ito ay mga kathang isip lamang at walang katotohanan. Ito ay epekto lang ng ilang araw na walang magawa. Ahehehe!!!

ONNI

This is the Korean word for SISTER.



Anyway, my sister deserves a special post in my blog on her special day, her birthday!

I honestly do not recall the last time that we had the chance to celebrate our birthdays together. Being that she is always away, what we only expect from each other are birthday greetings over the phone or thru SMS, or just receiving gifts from a box.

Sad reality is, there would be another year, and another year and sadly another year that we won't be together during our birthdays. Actually I am not certain as to when she would really be home. She has plans of her own which I think are better than mine.

So to my dear sis...

Much as I wanted to have you here by our side, I know that the plans that you have made are not selfish and is for the good of the family. I cannot thank you enough for being such a great sister to me. From being a straightforward advisor to a perfect accomplice. You got me covered not only once. Ahehehe!!!

We only have each other sis... Aside from our kids and our parents. Let it be known that I will always be here. May not the best sis but you know that you can always count on me.

If we grow up alone with our kids, I hope we would be like Auntie Conching and our Grandma, who stood by each other until their last breath.

May you always be blessed for all the good things you've done. Sarangheyo!

--Lost--

Lost in the blogsphere.

Lost connection for more than two weeks. Before Ondoy got his wrath in the country, the rain that poured out on Wednesday, Sept 16 got our roof so messed up. Flood didn't come from the outisde but in the inside of the house!!!

Since the room where the computer is located got busted, my poor pc got all the water. :-(

Days after that were boring... and I felt like I miss it like crazy!!!

Finally today, everything is back up... and here I am trying to make up for the lost time! Miss my restaurant in Facebook! ahehehe!!!

I won't rant about how bad I felt during those days that I don't have access to the net, because as most of you may have already known, there were thousands of people who had worse cases than I do.

Just sooo sooo thankful that this was all that happened to me.


I am also thankful to the thoughtful friends I have.... Thanks for your thoughts!!!


Now.... here I come!

Make Believe

Consciously or not, we may have been into a situation where in we assume more than what reality offers. We may have done it for some reasons; make ourselves happy, content or just merely helping ourselves out with anything that goes along. We may have done it intentionally or unintentionally and at times, it ends up chaotic because assumptions and premeditated conclusions has never been a healthy factor in making any relationship work.

Make believes are just mere assumptions. It is where one of the two has taken the relationship more seriously than the other. Or it may have been where a person thinks that they have this special attention or relationship. Moreover, one of the people involved in this thing may have just been a victim of this serious deceit.

Let me share some make believe stories that I have heard from friends:

Situation 1:
Have been an active poster in one of the forums based here in the phils. I met Ms. Witty who has been very accommodating and friendly. She introduced me to Mr. Traveler, a Filipino who is based somewhere in Asia. The two became my friends. Ms. Witty has shared a lot of things to me. I became her confidante which I am very flattered about. Not long after a few exchange of conversations, she mentioned that she had a huge crush on Mr. Traveler. This I could not deny because he is really full of life. Next thing I know was that she has been doing all the necessary attempts to get close to him. From exchange of SMS, international calls, gifts, and even visiting the country where Mr. Traveler is!!! Isn’t that such a great effort?!!! Now why would u think the girl would be exerting such an effort? It’s simply because she was under the impression that they have a mutual understanding or a special relationship. Being a friend to both, I am happy with the fact they might have really liked each other. But the day came when I had the chance to talk to Mr. Traveler and being the nosey person that I was, I tried to get some confirmation regarding the status of their relationship. That was when he got surprised that Ms. Witty has been maliciously spreading the news that they are a “thing”. As a woman, I tried not to believe it at first because I would like to believe that Ms. Witty has all the necessary evidence to prove what she had been claiming. However, conversation with Mr. Traveler has been a straight NO. Confused as I was, I didn’t try to debate on what was going on with them or not but this is really a MAKE BELIEVE. Apparently, on the girl’s part.

Situation 2:
A friend of mine is the no. 2. They guy is still living with his wife and superficially doing well as a married couple. The relationship with no.2 has been a secret for more than 2 years and they seemed to be so happy with their status. The girl was even boasting that they guy would be readily leaving the wife once the relationship has been revealed. This promise might have been the only reason why no.2 stocked to the relationship. The guy has even been claiming that she had more time with no.2 rather than with the wife. This might have given no.2 the assurance that she is the one that the guy really needs in his life. But like any other dark secrets, it was revealed on the time that no one had expected. As soon as the wife learned about the infidelity, the two has been out of contact. No.2 was bombarded with all the words that an angry wife could give. And without any word of goodbye or any thing that will suffice the hurtful words that she had received from the wife, the guy took off. Sadly, no words of comfort nor assurance of what the future would hold for them had been heard from the guy. So indifferent. And this I would say is another MAKE BELIEVE. Again, on the girl’s part.

Situation 3:
True as it seems, there are relationships that would really have to end. Whether it’s because of lost of love, recurring misunderstandings or complete lost of trust. But how would you believe that it was love after all when the relationship ended in just a flick of a finger. It may be hard to comprehend that it was indeed love that made these two people fall for each other and become the reason for them to be together for quite some time.

I would say that there had been some manifestations that they were in love but would you believe it was love when the other didn’t try hard enough to fight for the relationship?

I have seen a few friends with whom, despite the shortcomings from either of them or both; that despite some issues with trust and even some hurdles on the relationship, both has tried their best to save the love…BECAUSE THERE IS LOVE.

Now the prominent question is raised, do you think there was love when the other didn’t attempt to save the relationship? That despite of the effort to save the relationship by the other partner, it was futile and had not proven anything.

This may seem to be another MAKE BELIEVE…. Make believe that it was love. Make believe that they had been a couple. And make believe that he really has good intentions for you.

Make believes are very treacherous. And would cause not only an emotional trauma but also psychological trauma to the people involved. In this case, the victim would be on the verge of losing his or her self confidence and question the reality if he or she is still a good piece or a good piece of junk. Most importantly, if that person would be able to redeem his or her self after the hurtful experience.

Making someone believe of what is not is complete deceit. Hopefully, none of you has experienced any of this.

To end this, let me share a line from the movie Hancock , “Fate doesn’t decide on everything. People get to choose”.

Second Time...

Yup... This is the second time...

Second time that I lost my celphone....

Back in April you might have seen my post about how I was able to retrieve my phone.

And here you go, 5 months after. And yet, I was (again) able to retrieve it.

How it happened?

My son and I were on our way to his school to get his card. I gave him the new phone because I was using the old phone since there was a little prob with the new phone so I had to use the old one. On our way home he didn't realize that he didn't have the phone anymore. So there....

My mom and I didn't just let it go. Though I was already half hearted that the driver would be admitting that he had seen the phone. We had to go out and checked all the tricycle terminals and asked about it. Even if it meant lack of sleep since I have work that night. What's in it for the driver? A reward... another thousand out of my pocket!!!

Our effort was not futile though. Later that afternoon, one of the drivers that we had spoken to earlier paid us a visit and handed over the phone. Which was really a surprise! Who would have thought that he would rather have the reward when the phone's price is more than that?

This has made me realize not all people are really into the money. That somehow some people still have the conscience and a good heart.

Thankful that I am, I am humbled by these people.

Hopeful that more people would be having the same heart.

May God always bless these people....

Mom's Rotary Induction

It has just been barely six months when my mom rejoined the Rotary Club (Mixed). Her first membership was with Biñan, Laguna where it was part of the job that was given to her when she was still a college instructor in Trimex Computer School back in the late 90's.

Since her heart is into community service, rejoining the club was not part of any job requirements. This time, it was her motive and passion that moved her to rejoin despite the different responsibilities she has to attend to at home and her business. This however didn't stop her.

People from their organization might have seen this passion and so have elected her to be the next president for 2009-2010.

Held on September 14, 2009, Edsa Pavillion San Pedro Laguna. Attended by aprroximately 50 Rotarians and Rotaracts who bore as witnesses to my mom's big VIOLET day!

The new and outgoing president of San Pedro East

L to R: Norivic Solidum, my mom, Chit Lijauco, and the outgoing president

With the entire family and the Rotary Club Officers

The Ladies

Oathtaking of new set of officers

The entire family before the party

This would mean a lot of responsibilities, hurdles and dilemma not only for my mom but to entire family. Regardless, we will be supporting my mom whatever the cause may be. This is not only for her but for all the people who would be needing Rotary's help. Besides, the group is based on community service. Wish you the best mom!!!

My Slumbook

Old School huh?

Namiss ko lang yata mag fill out ng ganitong questionnaire. Kapag nakatapos ka na kase ng pagaaral, kundi bio date, resume, assessment, observation, survey, appraisal at kung ano ano pang work-related na issue na ang pinagsasagutan mo. So for a change, magbablast in the past ako at magpapaka corny muna.


Name:Andrea (I really don't prefer people calling me by this name)

Nick: Drey

Birthday: Aug 10 (don't mind the year)

Birthplace: Manila

Occupation: BPO Industry

Fave Past time: FB, Blogging, Forums and a little chatting

Fave Books: Paulo Coelho

Fave Song(s): If I believe, Fix you, Already gone, One in a million and Meet me Halfway

Fave Sports: Tabletennis, Swimming and Badminton

Fave Color: Violet

Fave Food: Beef Casserole, Chicken or Beef Curry, Pizza and Pasta

What attracts you most? - Wits, eyes and sweetness

What's a big turn off for you? - Conceited, Insensitive and Indifferent

Is love blind? - YES!!!!

Are you currently dating? - No.

If there's one thing that you could change what could be it? - My beliefs and perception in relationships.


Biggest Dream: To finally settle with someone I wont have a hard time adjusting and be able to find a place to call my own. To bear kids who would grow up molded and honed to be better people.

Anything else you would like me to add????

A New Me - Fashionista!!!

Nah... I really didn't mean that I'm a Fashionista. Because technically, I don't go shopping for expensive clothes, bags or shoes. Shopping is not even a habit for me. I'm not like other girls who can't last a week without a having a new apparel. That's just not me. I guess when you're a single mom priorities change as well as your passion to dress up.

Anyway, my being Fashionista here is just about being able to strike a pose. :-) Usually, I just wear a smile whenever there's a chance to be on cam, but thanks to my supportive friends for looping me into a different world of camwhoring...

See these...

Me and Hazel: Getting ready for the photoshoot. Is this metallic blue eyeshadow? Goes well with red shirt huh?

Practice pose. Not bad.

Trying hard not to smile. Whew!



And here are some of the shots taken. Enjoy!

Carwash girls?
White and Wet

Widow

So tell me, do you think I can be a good model?

BUKING!!!

Kakornihan minsan kung iisipin na isang tao sa edad ko para magdiary pa. Ewan ko... Nakasanayan ko na yata. Simula ata grade 6 ako, nakaugalian ko na magdiary. Lalo na kapag may lovelife ako or may someone special, gusto ko naisusulat ko siya. Katwiran ko, minsan gusto kong balikan ang mga masasayang alaala at kung anu ano pang nangyari sa akin. Un mga kilig moments, un mga oras na humahanap at gumagawa ka ng paraan para lang mapansin ka nya, etc etc. Nakakatawa pa nga kase kapag binabalikan ko, may mga English barok pa ako. Pero paano kung sa di inaasahang pagkakataon e may makabasa ng diary na ito?

Malapit sa buhay ko ang nakabasa ng diary ko. Pero siya un taong di ko inaasahang magbabasa nito. At sa lahat ng taong pwedeng makabasa nito, wag sya. Kase malalaman nya lahat ng baho ko, lahat ng kasinungalingan ko at lahat ng kalokohan ko.

Sino???

Ang mudra ko!!!

Paano ko nalaman? Sa ate ko. Sa kanya naibuhos ng nanay ko ang lahat ng inis. Dahil nalaman nya na nagsinungaling ako sa kanya at nagawa ko sya lokohin sa maraming pagkakataon . Yun mga panahon na sinabi ko na may meeting ako sa work, or may team building, or may seminar na sa katotohanan e nasa ibang parte ako ng Pilipinas o di kaya may kasama mga kasama ako. At yun, chinismis din ako. Kaya, 2 na sila na nakakaalam ng mga sikreto ako. Although, alam ng ate ko un ibang mga katarantaduhan ko, pero meron ding iba na pinili ko na lang talaga na sarilinin. Ayoko rin kase masira un tiwala sa akin ng ate ko, at the same time, alam ko na mataas din ang tingin ng ate ko sakin... Not until this happened.

Hindi naman ako kinumpronta ng nanay ko. Ayaw na lang siguro nya palakihin. Ayaw na lang din nya siguro magalit at wala naman na kase magagawa dahil matagal na nangyari ang mga kalokohan na yun. Ganun pa man, kung may natitira pa siyang tiwala sakin, malamang nabawasan na naman un. All this time hirap na hirap akong ibalik ang tiwalang iyon, pero sa pagkakataong ito, alam ko hindi ko siya masisisisi.


So ang lesson....



Wag ng mag diary!!!

Birthday Gifts '09

Simple as it may seem, I feel very flattered to receive gifts from friends or loved ones. Being the sentimental person that I am, I keep all the things given to me by people regardless of its worth. I also make sure that I use the gifts that I receive right away just to let that person know how I appreciate the gift. I actually have been tagged as a "Rat Pack" by a close friend of mine. I don't know about the others but for me, this is the only way I know that I would let them know how grateful I am for the gifts and most of all to the friendship. So I try to keep whatever I can.

I may have not received a lot of gifts everytime I celebrate my birthday but still I'm grateful for the thought that they have remembered me and had tried to send messages thru SMS.

Let me take this chance then to thank everyone who has sent their greetings:

Bess (who was the first person to greet me and sent her message at 00:08 am)
" Hoy Kupal! Happy Birthday! " (sweet nya noh?)

Valerie
" Happy birthday!! Be extra patient. God has been cooking all the best in life for you. Soon you'll reap what you truly deserve. God Bless!"

James
"Happy birthday Drey... Love u.. Have a blast!"

Raine (I remember giving her almost the same message on her birthday, I thought I had found my Mr. Right then)
"Gurl, happy birthday! Wish you health and wealth. Hope you find Mr. Right! =->

Danie (Actually I had to remind her that it was my birthday, aheheh!)
"Ay sorry.. Happy birthday po. Alam mo naman me makakalimutin me e..."

Ganny (biglang nabuhay!!)
"Happy, happy, happy birthday! Mwah!"

Anj
"Salamat sa Facebook, happy birthday!"

Angel
"Baby! Happy birthday! I hope you're having fun wherever you are! God bless you! You take care! You know I love you!"

Eeyan (again, salamat sa facebook!)
" Happy birthday, ate Drey!"

Cesar
"Gud AM. Happy birthday. Ngayon mo ba ako treat?"

Candy (friend from Cebu)
"Happy birthday! Mwah, mwah, mwah!"

Norman
"Happy birthday po. Kamusta ka na? Sobra pagkakalasing mo nun gabi ah"

Vina
"Happy birthday!! Cheers to the 29 years!"

Raech
"Happy birthday, Drey!"

Joy
"Happy birthday Drey! Wish you more blessings and happiness. God bless you and your family."

Majid ( He got used to calling me by my first name )
"Happy birthday ANDREA.. Hope every day in your life will be full of joy and laughter"

Kaye
"Hoist! Happy Birthday!"

Hazel
"babe!!! Maligayang bati sa iyo...You are a beautiful person inside and out..Like what I always say, if you could only see what I see, you'll be amazed!!! Isa ka sa pinaka asteg na taong nakilala ko.. The world is a better place because of you... Love you babe!!! Happy birthday!!! =)"

THE GIFTS

From Eric, a colleague.

From my sis, Ate Lexie. (Walang palya! Laging may gift!)

From Raine, a colleague.

From my Momma


Again, this would be another challenging and meaningful year. Hope to be with you guys still....
Thanks again!

Til This Year Ends...

I will make sure that I won't be in a relationship....

Having two major heartaches for a year is too much for a glued heart of mine to keep. And I don't think that I would be able to find a guy who would surpass the things he did. While it's all true that the best is yet to come, for me I know I already had the best.


A friend of mine has also made a promise to his self that he would stay single for one year after his birthday. That surely is a challenge especially that he is in the temptation world. In my case, I don't think it would really be a problem. So we'll see if I can continue this promise for one year :-P.

This time and a hundred times, I'm keeping my self for my self.

7 Years Ago....

Was surprised to get this picture from my sis after all these years! As most of you may have already known, I have been part of a band before getting into the call center industry. And this is me, with my first band - 3 vocalists with one pianist and one on sequencer.

Top L to R: Mae ann, Jerry and Aida
Sitting: Maria and me

Our first stint was in Isabela province ( where this picture was taken by the way )where we stayed for 2 months in the hotel where we had our contract. After that, we had a few gigs in Laguna, Cavite and Manila. I didnt pursue working with them since I had a different preference in terms of singing. Being young that I was, I want a "party" crowd.

I had my chance. The BIG break that I had been waiting for. In 2004, a friend's band was looking for an additional vocalist because the hotel where they signed the contract with required 4 vocalists. I jumped at the chance and left the band that I was with at that time. They were considerate enough to let me go. And because of that, I finally had the chance to go to Dubai - Claridge Hotel. I was not able to take a lot of pics there but check some of those I have.

With the drummer that we just met there.

One of the vocalists, I'm sorry I forgot her name.

The only camel I saw there.

At the entrance of the Filipino Club with Maria, the band manager.

So I guess even if I didn't end up as a good singer as my profession, still I'm happy that I was able to experience the night life, the pride and the glamor of being one even for a short while. I know it's not really meant for me. But I'm happy.

Hmmm... Am I prettier then?

Proud Momma

It has been a yearly practice at my son's school to have a dance competition every month of August in celebration of "Linggo ng Wika" ( where we as a nation celebrate having our own language ).

Honestly, this is one of the reasons why I'm glad I work at night. At least I can get to see my son on programs such as this. No need to file for a vacation leave or ask someone else to come and see him. At least when he grows up he would have all these in his memories... That I've supported him somehow even if I stuffed.

Also had the chance to meet my son's bestfriend, Joshua. Both are Gormiti fanatics!

He actually has his classes resumed after the program but I felt like giving my son a break so.... Guess what! My son and I escaped after the program, aheheheh!!! The security guard had to ask if we were going home, but since I know the protocol where I would have to secure a permission from the Guidance Counselor, I just told the guard that we would be picking up his bag from the car. So there! Good lesson learned from his very own Momma! Ahehehe!!!

Dinner with Performance

Double meaning: Dinner with the 2nd Quarter's Performance Council with

Live Performance!!!

As part of our last hurrah for this quarter, our council had a treat for the top performer for the month of July. With some of my colleagues we went to Giligans, Alabang and had good meal,bonding time with good music on our background.

The entire group. Can u see me?

With boss Joy and James

THE PERFORMERS

James


Valerie


Me :-P





It has been years since I have last sung infront of a crowd. And I must say that I miss it. How you can dance on stage and shake your *ss with people dancing with your groove. I wonder when I would be able to do that again.

By the way, I used "Nikka" as my alias. Nothing serious though. Ahehehe. You would hear my friends call me Nikka. Nice time to unwine!!!!

Hybernation

I was not gone. Niether away.

Just had to find my self.

But not to sensationalize it.

Had to find another outlet, aside from the blogging world.

Because I believe...

Half of my readers do not care

And the rest are glad it happened.