Here I am Again

I know i have gone through a lot of heartaches in my life. Some of those, i must admit may have been avoided if only i have listened to what my conscience told me. For whatever pain I went through then, I have prepared my self for that and I know that I deserve it. Sometimes, I know that I'm already falling for the wrong person, but damn this heart of mine.... I still pursued even though I know its wrong....

Now here I am again, about to commit the same mistake again... Worse, he is a total stranger; a guy i havent met personally. This may be a surprise for some of you of havent felt that magic for a stranger...

I may not know where this would lead to, but Im hoping at least to be with him and feel his love... I know he's too much for me but I know he would fulfill a woman's longing to be with her man....

misery and more...

ever since i learned that he has this someone special, i must admit i was lost... and after that letter i sent him... i heard nothing from him. though i still tried to send him some quotes thru text. i guess, thats it...
this is really all my fault...if i just kept my feelings to my self, perhaps i could still spend some time with him... and be happy... guess thats really over...

Exactly a year ago...

.... this was the day i got to meet the man who had made me fall inlove that deep.It was the same day that i realized that 2 people may be able to like each other at first contact. well i should say,this was just for me bcuz he never like me anyway... just plain attraction...

he was the first guy whom i have shared the skeleton in my closet, and the first guy that i could say was the first guy i thought i would be sharing most of the years of my life... he was nice... i mean, he is nice. And i envy the girl who made him fall. Somehow i wish that i would have someone like him....