Went out just yesterday with Joy and Alyne. Kinda figured out I had to let go of the pain I'm goin thru right now. These are just some of the friends who understand what I'm goin through right now and the hell that I'm in right now. Thanks for the true friendship. Cheers!!
im really getting excited... why not? here's to good season, good food and good people... not to mention gifts and merry-making!!!i have already blocked my schedule for this coming week end ( Dec 9 and Dec 10 ) to attend a group party in Marikina and Alabang respectively. And also will be out of town come 17 and 18 with my online friends whom i have shared a year already goin out and making fun with our singleness. Yup, we are a group of singles and we never treated this friendship as a nesting place for relationship. nice one huh...im no longer excited for the gifts... and im no longer expecting one... last year i guess i ended up having 5, and i guess this year would be less... and so what? for as long as im happy and contented... what makes this season special? honestly, none...its just one of those regular holidays that i need to celebrate because everyone is celebrating it. and of course i have to teach the little kids at home what this season is for, what we usually do at this time of the year. i know there is greater meaning for this.. but im an apostate though not entirely...confusing? yah.. im confused myself...anyway, hope everyone will get what they want in life... and i also hope to get mine as well... whatever it is, i'd better keep it to myself... and i guess im not really sure what to ask for...
in the corner of my mind i know he is still with me, beside me, whispering words warm enough to melt my heart. his face flashing right before my very eyes. my heart pounding at the very sound of his name.
my thoughts are just all about him. my plans include him, asking God to make him mine. groping at every chance there is to see him and feel him. breathing just for him and his existence.
with the messages he sends me, my heart is filled with joy, keeps me on my feet. trying to digest every word, comprehending the thought beneath those words. wondering if he knows how he means to me.
and every time i go to sleep, his thoughts and sweet promises keep on echoing at the back of my mind. bringing smile in to my face after i say my evening prayer. wishing that by the time i wake up its you i would see.
still i wish there's something i could do to change how things are right now. hoping we are both free to love and we both feel something special for each other. but damn... im just a friend...and i guess im the only one who misses him...:(
Went out just yesterday with Joy and Alyne. Kinda figured out I had to let go of the pain I'm goin thru right now. These are just some of the friends who understand what I'm goin through right now and the hell that I'm in right now. Thanks for the true friendship. Cheers!!
