When love leaves

Love will always have its inherent myteries.it is a mystery why we fall in love--when it comes, how it happens, why some relationships grow and others dont. many try to decode this mystery, to find reason and cause, but in the process take the life out of the experience of loving.

when love comes to us,we try to hold on as firmly as we can, blind to the reality that just as life is a gift in its time, so is love. when the time comes that we fall out of love, or when leaving them, we desperately try to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accept the gift for what it is.

at this junction of your life, you may be searching for answers where there are none. you may be wondering if there is something wrong with you, or if changing your partner or yourself will make a difference and help love blossom again. you may blame yourself, each other or the circumstances in an attmept to give meaning to what has happened. but maybe there is really no meaning beyond love itself.

at times in the process of takin care of ourselves, we may need to change some parameters in a particular relationship. at other times just as it is in your situation, it becomes inevitable to end it. this, in fact, holds true for all kinds of relatinships, whether romantic or otherwise.

ending or changing a relationship is not easy. but often, is necessary.

we may at times linger in relationships that have long been dead out of fear of being alone, and to suspend the inevitable grieving process that accomaonies endings. we may linger long to prepare ourselves to get strong and ready enough to handle impending change.

accepting that a relationship has ended is difficult. it calls for courage and faith that we will receive the power and the ability to do wat we need to do. at the same time, it requires a willingness to take care of ourselves and, sometimes, to be alone for a while.

the lesson is simple yet rich. love has its own time, its own season and its own reasons for coming and going. if and when it chooses to leave,. either form your heart or from the heart of your lover, be thankful that it came, even if just for a moment. and if we keep our hearts and souls open, it will surely and definitely come again and finds its way home.

Thanksgiving '06

Great!!! yah today U.S. will be celebrating thanksgiving and that means... long avail!!!! ahihih!!! oh what a joy!!! this is the simple truth for guys working in a call center. the only day we always look forward to!

I remember last year, when i was still working in makati the company that i was with had this one-day training on soft skills and a bit about the product. this year, the company that i am with right now STILL wants us to be on queue. argh!!!!

the pain of working in a call center is that we dont get holidays off, though we get double pay. but sometimes its more than the money... sometimes we want to enjoy the long weekend that Gloria implements... and hello to the Milenyo typhoon!!! there was no power for almost 4 days in our location, but hell our office had so we had to go to work despite the incovenience of not having water for shower and not having enough sleep. du-du-duh!!!

have to bring a lot of food at work tonight...pig out!!!!

jilted me....

i never meant to be so cold. specially to you. you're so nice. you're all heart, sweetie. you're something special.
and you are not just another notch on my belt.

please don't think i'm such a passionless person. i do feel what you're saying. and it's breaking my heart to hear you say that.

i care about you. and i'm not lifeless not realizing that you taking me home and introducing to your friends is not a big deal. i know it is. and i feel your sorrow. of course. i'm human too.

before we parted, i saw sorrow in your eyes. i guess you were thinking ahead.

maybe if i can get my affairs in order, you can give me a chance. if it's not too late.

i really like your attitude a lot. you are a lovely girl. and don't let anyone tell you or make you feel different. it's just me. so much has been taken from me and now i'm inanimate.

i'm not everything everybody thought i could be.

a letter i have received from someone special in my life now, a person i thought could be real... as i went thru the contents i felt a tear streaking down my cheeks. somehow i felt im special and that im appreciated. but thats just it... nothing more, nothing less....

My Man

it has been my fervent desire
to wake up each morning
and see your face beside me,
assuring me of your love and
your endless faith.

to close my eyes in the middle of the night
with your lips close to mine
that will seal the promise
of this new found love.

to walk the along the shore
with your hands with mine,
comforting my heart's desire
that you are mine forever.

to hear your voice every now and then
and give me the courage to go on with life,
telling me that im all that u desire
and the one who will complete u.

to feel the warth of your embrace
when the night starts to get cold
reassuring me that im finally home
with the one ive waited for... my man.

All Soul's Day '06

After some time, it was only this year that we had the time to gather ourselves and visit our departed loved ones. Before, we would end up visiting our friends'departed loved ones since we cannot find time to go to Manila where our departed are laid.

This year, it was really fun and memorable. We have some close friends and relatives with us to share this holiday while we reminisce the times we had with our dear loved ones.

I only got 2 hours of sleep this day, but i find it all worth is spending quality time with them...:)