perfect

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

when you have to let go

nothing can be more excruciating than knowing that you no longer have the person that you really love...

after some time of being blinded from the painful reality, i had to open my eyes and accept the truth that you should let him go.Much as it hurts, you know that its not going to work out,or it hasnt worked out from the very start and you were just so stupid not to see the signs. well i guess i've seen the signs but i ignored them;with the hope that things would be better as we go along.I even thought that maybe after some time he would finally realize that i am good for him, that i can be the girl that he can spend most of his life with, if not his entire life.

BUt how much do i have to bear just to have him in my life? after confessing that he was trying to win his ex back;after finding out that he was flirting with other girls two times. on top of that,days without even a single 'hi' or 'goodnight', or weeks i had to bear for not seeing him.

He never loved me, that's the sad truth. He never even TRIED to love me. Even though God knows how much i tried to show him that i love him. And i was too engrossed loving him without expecting anything in return. I was even willing to wait for that 'special' day when he would finally see me as his girl, who had endured a lot of pain just to be with him, and the one who have loved him not only 'because of' but also 'inspite of" of anything. Do you think this love is not enough???

But now its over, i just feel sorry for my self cuz i never had the chance to feel the love that i was longing and i was never given the attention that i deserve. those days were just a waste of emotion... and i could only hope that he never came into my life and broke my silence.

However, i still wanna say sorry. sorry that my love was never enough for you to make you change your mind;that from the start, i know i never made you happy...and sorry for the fact that the only thing i could give you is my sincere love.

The tears may not show in this text, but may you feel the melancholy of the statements i have written.

on letting go

i have been praying
that you wont leave me hanging around
that it would be your voice that will wake me up each morning
that we'll walk together,hand in hand

it has been so long
since i uttered those prayers
and it has troubled both my mind and my heart
but noanswer was found
no answer was sent from above

i have watched a thousand sunsets
i have read a dozen novels
i have searched and searched for an answer
none, nothing
not even a hint was there

you know i need you and i love you
but i must go out in this world
and break this fantasy
so i am walking away
running,crying away from you

tonight my beloved
i am praying
in the same room that i have prayed before
i'll force my self to sleep and drift some sorrow
for tomorrow i am letting you go...