when you have to let go

nothing can be more excruciating than knowing that you no longer have the person that you really love...

after some time of being blinded from the painful reality, i had to open my eyes and accept the truth that you should let him go.Much as it hurts, you know that its not going to work out,or it hasnt worked out from the very start and you were just so stupid not to see the signs. well i guess i've seen the signs but i ignored them;with the hope that things would be better as we go along.I even thought that maybe after some time he would finally realize that i am good for him, that i can be the girl that he can spend most of his life with, if not his entire life.

BUt how much do i have to bear just to have him in my life? after confessing that he was trying to win his ex back;after finding out that he was flirting with other girls two times. on top of that,days without even a single 'hi' or 'goodnight', or weeks i had to bear for not seeing him.

He never loved me, that's the sad truth. He never even TRIED to love me. Even though God knows how much i tried to show him that i love him. And i was too engrossed loving him without expecting anything in return. I was even willing to wait for that 'special' day when he would finally see me as his girl, who had endured a lot of pain just to be with him, and the one who have loved him not only 'because of' but also 'inspite of" of anything. Do you think this love is not enough???

But now its over, i just feel sorry for my self cuz i never had the chance to feel the love that i was longing and i was never given the attention that i deserve. those days were just a waste of emotion... and i could only hope that he never came into my life and broke my silence.

However, i still wanna say sorry. sorry that my love was never enough for you to make you change your mind;that from the start, i know i never made you happy...and sorry for the fact that the only thing i could give you is my sincere love.

The tears may not show in this text, but may you feel the melancholy of the statements i have written.