Im depressed....

I have a depression I do have to admit,
Admit that I have been depressed.
Thinking how much I wish I could be
happy,
Thinking how much I want in life,
Thinking how much you can miss someone
you love.

When I look back I can see how much
this depression has been there in my
life.
I need this to be fake.
I need this not to be true.
Yet again its true I have this
depression that makes me sad inside and
the outside.

My depression has caused me to see how
sad I can be.
How it makes me feel,
How this depression makes me think of
cutting and suicide.
But we are all human.
We have all have something to overcome.
I will overcome this depression once
and for all.
I will fight back somehow.
This depression I will get rid of
someday...
For now I have to deal with it.

Mother's Day '07

Just had a little dinner at one of the restos in Alabang. This was just one of those memorable dine outs I had with my family since we dont get together that often. My sister was at home this time after being away for more than 2 years.

I love my mom, I may not be able to tell it to her personally or even let her feel it but I do. She is the only one who had struggled for us to survive. My dad had to leave us when I was 8 yrs old and my sis was 9. Imagine the hardship. She had to work most of the time and we had to understand why she cant attend to us. It is true indeed that mothers would endure a lot of sacrifices and pain just to give what would make her family happy and contented.

Now that I am a mom myself, a single mom that is, I also would like to do the best I can to provide whatever my kid needs. It may not be enough but I surely let my son understand the why's and how's of life. My son may not have the grasp of it right now but I know at the right time he would. He has to.

Im still keeping my fingers crossed that someday I would be able to complete the missing piece of my family. I hope he is there....

What a Relief!!!

The show cause that was given to me last month, ended up with just a written warning!!! whew!!! It was really a relief!!!

I was supposed to be suspended for 10 days. I have even asked my supervisor to give me straight 10 days for the suspension since I would like to take it as a break and a way to deliberate on things. I was prepared for it already... I have made plans actually, heheheh!!! Hey, who doesnt want to have a vacation??? :)

Well, Im still thankful God had helped me get thru with it.