Goodbye 91m19

Last Aug 25, I had to say goodbye to these people I had shared my daily routines at work. It was my last day in this team. And ironically, we had to celebrate! Hehehehe!!! This is just for the good times that we've had. I hope what I have contributed in the team would always be remembered...

Guys, just because Im no longer in the team doesnt mean I would no longer care. Im with you all through out... will miss you guys :)

My blog is worth......

My blog is worth $564.54.
How much is your blog worth?

gosh!! my blog is just worth this much?!!!

I guess my blog is really worthless after all... :(

i want...

I want the warm early morning kiss
to start my day right.


I want to feel your embrace
and feel security with those broad arms.

I want to spend the entire night with you
and just hide under your face.

I want to cuddle in bed with you
where nothing matters but you and me and our love.


I want those sweet little suprises
that would enlighten my ebbing mood.


I want to receive bouquet of white roses
that would reveal the sincerity of your love.

I want the long walk along the shore
hand in hand, where we are one with the world.


I want to wear your wedding ring
to let the entire world know how proud
I am to be committed to you.

27th Birthday

I havent had a good birthday celebration for the last 9 years... Maybe because I'm no longer into having one. This year I ended up having lunch with 2 of my closest friends and just bought a new pair of shoes as a gift for my self.

Yeah, I didnt receive any gift, neither from my closest friends nor from my family. Its just an up and go I guess. My family has been through a lot recently that I understood why they have forgotten my birthday (literally, yeah...). Well that is also the reason why I didnt intend to celebrate... There were a lot of things we had to focus on rather than having a party.

Im getting scared... thats what I feel right now. Scared of what life would bring me, my family. Whats more in this life that I have to endure? Would I really be growing old alone with my kid? Am I really bound to be a single parent my entire life? Am I not goin to have someone to share the ups and downs of having a family?

Could it be I'm not really ready to have a family of my own, thats why its not given to me yet? Could it be that it would be more difficult for me to live with someone? Or am I really bound to eternal singleness?

I know I still have to wait... forgive me for ranting...