A Letter To the One that God has Prepared For Me



I am wondering at this very minute if you are

thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering

what is taking us so long to find each other. Many

times I thought I finally found you only to be

disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I

get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.



I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be

as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or

is it possible that I have known you all my life but

we have yet to realize that we are meant for each

other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you

are the only one who has the answers to all my

questions.



Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really

known "love". I do not have the answer to that

question either but I believe that, more often than not,

we will never really know what love is until we

find that right person.... and since I have not found

you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!



You just don't know how often I dream of finally

knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this

very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep

me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by

your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you

manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways!



I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God

will help me recognize you when the right time comes.

I think of all the pain that I have gone through

in the past and of how much I have cried since the

day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that

I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the

beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend

with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that

you are worth all that pain and sacrifice.



After all, the tears have become a part of my

life and I believe that they are slowly washing away

my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect

in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU! I wonder

if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder

if you've been hurt so many times along the journey.



But my dearest one, please don't ever give up

because I am right here... patiently waiting for

you! I assure you that when we finally find each other

I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.



At night, I would look out my window and stare

at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are

also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a

silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens

above thinking that in time they would reach you. And

when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and

believe that you are on your way and that you are

longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall

asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are

always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is

the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to

tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you

would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of

love.



And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up

and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon

enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and

once again I am assured that you are worth the wait.

And when that time comes, everything will fall into its

place, just as I had imagined, just as I had

thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be!

By then, I would simply look back and smile at all

that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and

amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very

thankful because they all led me to you!



In the meantime, take care of yourself for me.

Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go.

Believe in your heart that we will find each other

no matter what happens. God has planned the

course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't

worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to

it that all the roads, no matter which one you

choose to follow, lead to me .

Are u his priority or not?

no matter how BUSY a guy's day is,
he will find a way to get a hold of
you by any means.
that is, if you're his priority.
if you think about it, a text,
phone call, or e-mail takes less than
5 minutes these days.
he will make time, no matter how
hectic his day is going.....

whats with the Valentine's?

Do u have a date on Valentine's Day?

I dont... and that makes me feel indifferent....

I hope there's more on Valentine's than hugs and kisses!!!

And the big question is do u really need to have a date on that day...

Well,,,,, if u do have a date, fine... but if you dont come and join me....

I HAVE THIS DAY FOR ME AND GOD!!!!

therefore, since we are surrendered by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders andt the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
- Hebrews 12:1-2

just like that....

People come and go .... Some people stay and give meaning to our lives. Some just dropped by but leave an immeasurable scar on our hearts. When we meet people we would hope they could stay longer or permanently on our lives. We would do everything to please that someone. We tend to forget our priorities, our responsilibilities for that person... "Why not? He's my happiness..." This is what we often reply for all these foolishness... And time would fly..... still focused on loving him, pleasing him and doing everything for him. Not realizing you have already forgotten who you are... the person that you ought to be... You have made HIM your world that it already revolves in him. You have forgotten the real world that you are in and the people who live with you. And most importantly, you have forgotten to love yourself....

The world suddenly turns to gray and the ship has sailed... he changed. You thought he wouldnt but he did! You still try to win him over... trying everything to prove that you love him more than you life.But reality bites, he has to go... "what more is there in this life without him in my life?" Damn life! Put to waste!! And I' m wasted!!!

The sad part after this very excruciating experience is where to start... After leaving evrything and putting things aside. You have no one, all of them are gone. Who can u turn to? Being the victim you try to seek revenge. Not knowing that it will not do anything good for you. And will only add insult to injury....

Hard times... Painful times....Hope they will not come any more...and leave me just like that!.